5 Things I Am Excited About
1) Breastfeeding. I really hope things work out for me with nursing (I know they don’t always) because ever since I found out I was pregnant, I have been most excited about breastfeeding. I know it might hurt and I know it won’t be easy, but in the event that it goes well, just the thought of going through this experience makes me already feel a bond.
2) Babywearing. Similar to breastfeeding, I just can’t wait to hold my baby against my body. When I tried on the wrap the other day, just having a bear in there was exciting!! I hope I will be able to wear my baby all around town. I initially thought I might be a stroller mom, but now that I’ve learned more about the different kinds of carriers, I think having your baby tucked on you with free hands sounds like a great concept – at least when he’s little! The only thing I wonder: how much are my shoulders going to hurt if I’m lugging around a diaper bag and possibly camera gear in addition to the baby? In that sense, a stroller that holds all the weight for me sounds like a good idea too.
3) Looking at him. And him looking at me! And more specifically, finding out who he looks like! Will he have Matt’s dark hair (likely not since he was blonde as a kid) or my green eyes (eventually)? I’ve seen so many babies who look just like their parents recently. Will our baby look like us? How will he change as he gets older? What will his personality be like? I can’t wait to find out!
4) The diaper bag. I’ve been obsessed with diaper bags since I was a 6 year old pushing a doll in a doll stroller. The pockets, the contents, the style – all of the above. The Skip Hop Messenger is my current favorite because I love the fit of messenger bags and the pockets on the front are great for easy access to mom’s things. Dad-friendly too! I think I will be a nerd who packs her diaper bag with diapers and toys as soon as I get one. I will probably never use a purse again since I’m such a minimalist to begin with: phone, wallet, small pouch of personal items (like chapsick) are all I ever carry around. [Oh plus a DSLR half the time ] Throw them in my diaper bag and I’m set!
5) Playing with dad. It seems like Matt gets a little more excited with each day that passes. He loves to play with kids and he seems to be getting a lot of playtime in with babies around us lately. They always say that dads become dads when the baby is born, and I’m eager to see what it’s like to have him hold our baby in his arms.
5 Things I Am Nervous About
1) The lifestyle adjustment. When I hang out with a baby or babysit, I have a lot of fun, but I have to admit I’m relieved when I go home to my two-person household again. From my perspective right now, I think the hardest part of motherhood is that it’s never ending. You can have short breaks with babysitters or nursery school and eventually elementary school, but at least while you’re nursing fulltime there aren’t many breaks in the day [or night], and I imagine that gets exhausting. But I’m also hoping that I will just be so in love with my baby that maybe I won’t mind at all : ) As far as things like going out to dinner and hanging with our friends go, Matt and I are determined to keep as much of our lifestyle going as possible. Maybe not right away, but certainly when we get in a good routine. Baby in the carrier at an outdoor concert? Lynsie and 3-week-old D are already out and about, so I think it just takes a good amount of planning and determination to keep your social life going.
2) That something will go wrong. I tend not to worry about things too much until I have a reason to. I keep my fears tucked in the back of my mind just to remind myself they’re possible, but I tend to be very optimistic in general. So if it seems like I am overly optimistic on my blogs – it’s because I am. But that doesn’t mean I don’t understand (or struggle with) the realities of life. I’m nervous that something will go wrong with labor and delivery or the baby’s health. Nothing is predictable. But as I always says, I’ll cross that bridge if we get there.
3) The messes. I have to admit I’m scared of food smeared all over my house. And toys everywhere. And just a sense of chaos at home. I’m mentally prepared for it (eventually at least!) because I know kids are messy. I’m terrified of the day when my 5 year old throws up in bed it in the middle of the night. I did that as a kid, and I don’t know how my mom dealt with the mess of throw up (it’s worse than poop if you ask me). Food WILL be smeared in nooks and crannies and all over my baby and me, and I’m sure while I’m nursing milk will go everywhere too. I’ll just have to learn to live with it – and get a good cleaning system in place!
4) My workload + blogging. While I could give myself a nice long maternity leave from both blogs, I don’t really want to. I don’t really know what will happen when the baby is born. I can see myself not having the energy to post more than photos, but I can also see myself finding the energy from somewhere to blog almost as I do now during naps or in the evenings. I just have no idea what to expect, and the last thing I want is to feel totally overwhelmed with all the things I do as a blogger and the learning curve of being a mom. Nervous.
5) Baby #2. No plans for one yet (we’d like to wait 3-4 years) and no certainty we will have another, but I’m already thinking how much harder pregnancy would be with a toddler to chase after! I’m also wondering where we will put baby #2 if we stay in our current house. We’d either have to have them share a room, lose our guest room, finish the attic, or move. Totally not something I should be worrying about right now, but it’s crossed my mind more than once as the last room in the house starts to fill up. This house was plenty big with just the two of us, but two could turn into 4 (or 5 if a dog makes its way in!) quicker than I realize. But let’s cross that bridge when we get there
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