Mazen’s Birth Story

September 14, 2012

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It all began on a rainy Thursday morning when I opened my eyes and felt an electric “pop” inside of me. Followed by a second one. Since I was on high alert for signs of labor, I figured I should make a beeline to the toilet ….just in case.

The moment I sat down, I knew my water had broken.

The day before, I had had acupuncture and a massage and think they both contributed to getting things going. I was 6 days past my due date.

With nerves racing, I excitedly took a shower, made breakfast and tidied up the house. “I’m going to have a baby today!” I thought.

Throughout the morning, I started feeling more and more cramps. My period cramps were never that bad growing up, so these did feel like “the worst cramps of my life” but that’s not really saying much. Around 10am, I felt my first wave of a contraction. It really did feel like an ocean wave going through me, but it wasn’t painful. I felt a few more of these and tried timing them, but they sort of fizzled away. I had called my doula first thing and she planned to come over around noon to see how I was doing and talk about our options.

I was group B strep positive and since my water had broken, we knew we needed to go to the hospital sooner rather than later. But we also didn’t want to show up not in labor and face an induction, so we tried one more round of acupuncture first: Dr. Tate came over to do another round (and I thank him very much!) At this point I was uncomfortable, but not really in pain. Just lots of cramping.

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Matt and I also decided to go for a walk. Walking wasn’t easy with all the cramping, but I was hopeful it might help get me into labor

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We realized that we had forgotten to buy pumpkin beer for the post-birth celebration so our destination – Beer Run! When we got there we found my FAVORITE Pumking had just arrived, and so we decided to get a case to have for the whole fall season.

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Crazy Matt carried it home in his arms!

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When we got back home, I was still cramping pretty badly though not necessarily contracting, but it was time to go in. I called my doctor and they had me come to the office before they sent me over to the hospital. So we packed our bags and left to have a baby!

At the office, their initial check revealed I was 2cm, 70% effaced and –1 station. (The days before I was 1cm, 60-70% effaced and almost –1 station). Little progress, but it was something. My doctor said it was best to go in and get my first dose of antibiotics (due to the group B strep). We talked about my desire for a drug-free birth and he said there would not be a push for induction quite yet – we had time. He called ahead to the doctor on call at the hospital to let him know this in advance, which I very much appreciated.

It was quite surreal walking into the hospital knowing we weren’t coming back out. If only I knew what kind of intensity was coming! I was really eager to get labor going and exit this wishy-washy contraction stage, and so my famous last words were ‘bring on the pain’!

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Our doula, Jen, met us there and I was led to our room and told to put on a gown. At the time I felt kind of silly because without anything exciting happening I still felt the need for modesty!

I was put on the monitors and surprised to hear contractions were coming about 3 minutes apart. I could only feel about half of them, but that seemed pretty close together to me!

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Still smiling…

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Next up was the IV insertion and my antibiotics. This was hard on me emotionally – when she was done with the needle I ended up crying a little. I just had to let it out. We had to wait for the antibiotics to finish before we could get started on some laboring exercises. It was about 6pm when we started on the exercise ball.

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Jen was my prenatal yoga teacher for my whole pregnancy (she mostly doulas for her yoga students) and I knew we were in for an active labor. Her techniques work to bring the baby into the best position, and so I spent about an hour doing big wide loops on the exercise ball to open my pelvis and get him to engage.

[Still smiling…]

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Sometime during this hour, I started to really feel a start and stop to each contraction. I would loop on the ball and then during a contraction stand up, hold my belly towards me, tuck my tail and breathe deeply.

An hour later, my smile had turned into a frown –

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(Actually, I’m clearly turning into a mother here because I’m doing the upside down frown/disapproving mom face)

We started to do a lot of other exercises – Jen and Matt both jiggled me in this funny sling way!

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I did some laboring leaning over the bed. Swaying side to side really helped ease the contractions. I see from the clock this was about 7:30pm!

During this time, Matt and Jen ate “dinner” – tomatoes from the garden with bread and pimento cheese and hummus. I had NO desire to eat savory foods, but I did manage to get in some dates, lots of coconut water, some juice and a date ball. Matt fed me some banana slices with peanut butter too.

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But really this is all I wanted to do:

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At 8pm, we got in the jacuzzi tub. Every room at Martha Jefferson has a tub in the bathroom and we filled it with warm water (wish it could have been hot!) and turned on the jets. At this point I was so uncomfortable that my modesty was gone and I just got naked and in the tub.

Jen and Matt talked me through two hours of contractions in the tub. This is when the night got intense. I started on my knees, legs spread open wide, draped over the side of the tub on a towel. Within a half hour, my contractions were such that I was now moaning. Jen had me say the words “ouuuuuuuuut” and “opppppeeeennn” over and over and over again. It was all I could focus on. I think the whole second hour of the tub was spent with my eyes closed. I remember shaking uncontrollably just before the contracts were about to start. I remember sipping coconut water and thinking it was disgusting and asking for plain ice water. I remember thinking there is no way I can get back out of this tub. There was just not enough time between contractions. I remember saying “I can’t do this much longer.” And then I remember thinking…I must be approaching transition.

Jen said my contractions were 2 minutes apart for 7 hours, which is not common. I had little time to think. I remember my hair was coming loose from my pony tail and I wanted so badly to fix it but I didn’t have the energy, focus or the time to pause and re-do it the entire night. (After he was born I commented: “I’m so glad I can fix my pony tail now!”)

The contractions weren’t as much of a bell curve as they were a sharp peak and then a gradual slow decline. It’s hard to describe what was so bad about them, but they really did take over my whole body. I felt most of my labor right down low in the front. It was like there was a really, really strong magnet inside. A magnet like the hatch in LOST. And it was in my core. Every time a contraction would start, someone was trying to pull the magnet from me with another on the outside. Little by little, the pain would subside only to restart the cycle a few seconds later.

When I finally got out of the tub, I was shivering and draped in warm blankets. I think I said at this point: “Why did I stay in there so long!? These blankets feel amazing!”

I was kind of surprised that unlike on TV, I hadn’t been checked since I arrived at the hospital (the doctors wanted to minimize internal exams because of my water breaking and the risk of infection). It was now 10 pm and the contractions were really intense. My doctor came in to check me and said I was 5 cm, 100% effaced and still –1 station.

I responded with “YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME! Only 5 cm!?!?!”

I was shocked and discouraged. I think I uttered another “I can’t do this…” Jen says that she thinks I went through an early transition while I was in the tub, judging from the frequency and intensity of the contractions along with my emotional state. They all seemed very pleased with my progress, but I was discouraged. Jen said that this was the point she would normally take a mom to the hospital, and I have to say I was so glad we were not getting in a car to just get there in this kind of intensity.

From this point on, the next 5 hours are a complete blur. I labored on the toilet, draped over the exercise ball, draped over the side of the bed, the back of the bed, doing cat/cow pose from yoga. All I could focus on was saying “ouuuuuuuut” (and sometimes “ouuuuch”) over and over and over again. It was also around this time that I threw up – violently and deeply – for the first time. I think I must have thrown up about 4-5 times throughout the night, and each time the heaving tightened everything inside of me and caused me to bear down.

The most uncomfortable position was when Jen had me lie flat with my legs lower than my hips to encourage him to move downward, and I remember actually feeling him slide down with a strong contraction. Painful, but effective.

TMI Sidebar: One thing I didn’t expect – there was blood and gunk everywhere! It emerged from me all night. Labor was so much messier than I had imagined. It was gross, and I was glad we were in a hospital and not at my house. I felt bad for whomever had to clean up the floors, the bed, wherever I went! It was really gross. Especially when you mix in the throwing up!

When we labored on the toilet, Jen asked me if I was feeling pressure. Apparently I had started grunting and that was a sign of the baby moving over my tailbone and getting closer to pushing.

Around midnight, I started to get the urge to push. Jen alerted my nurse and they encouraged me to listen to my body. What started as a little urge became an uncontrollable instinct to bear down. At this point, I was in the bathroom, with a towel tied to a bar, and squatting during contractions. I started pushing with all of my might. I thought I was getting close. I heard them turn on the baby warmer and start getting ready for a baby’s arrival. (Keep in mind he wasn’t born until hours later at 3:38am..)

Growling Sidebar: At this point in the evening, my moaning and chanting turned into real primal grunting, growling and howling. I’ve heard women say before that birth is very primal, but I couldn’t believe the sounds that emerged from me. Sometimes a loud growl was the only thing I could imagine getting me through. If you had told me to be silent, I’m not sure I could have. The noises got louder and louder throughout the night as my contractions got stronger and stronger. I was yelling at one point. I really hope the rest of the hospital wasn’t too freaked out by the woman in room 10!

After maybe 30 minutes of squats and pushes, I ended up back on the bed and my nurse checked me. She said I was 8.5-9cm and that I had an anterior cervical lip that was getting a little swollen. I needed to hold back on the pushing. They inverted my bed so that my head was lower than my body. This made the contractions even more intense. I think I threw up all over the bed at one point. I remember gripping Matt’s arm for my life and giving him an Indian burn to pass off the pain. (No wonder he said I was being tortured!)

I definitely mentioned an epidural a few times throughout the night, but I think I was just testing my support team. They said they could tell that despite how uncomfortable I was, I didn’t need the epidural. I was coping well. Jen told me later that she couldn’t believe how “in the moment” I stayed. She said she often has to go deep inside a woman and pull her back from a dark place to focus. She was impressed that I kept my focus on the chanting and taking each contraction one at a time as they came. I just did what my brain told me to do!

Mental Sidebar: Another thing that is crazy to me about this whole experience is that while I could barely speak and do anything but rest between contractions, my mind was very sharp. In my head, I was myself. I could think clearly and rationalize about what was going on. But what was inhibited was my ability to communicate with those in the room.

It must have been around 1-2 am when they checked me again. This time I was 9.5 cm with just that anterior lip holding me back. The nurse said she would try to manually push it aside while I pushed, but that didn’t have any luck. My doctor, unsuccessful as well, said to give it a little more time. They had also put a monitor on me because the baby’s heart rate was dipping just a little. It wasn’t anything to be concerned with yet, but it was something they wanted to monitor. I remember thinking that the heart rate decelerations combined with the lip had me going in the direction of a c-section and that I would be OK with that because it would mean I would be numb and this would all be over (and most importantly that the baby would be safe). I also remember a beeping noise that kept going off that sounded like a warning alarm. I thought it was the baby’s heart rate and was getting worried and finally said “What is that beeping!?!!?” They said “Oh it’s just the warming bed!” Relief.

An hour later (AN HOUR LATER OF TERRIBLE CONTRACTIONS!) at 3am, the doctor came back to try to push aside the lip again. He literally put his hands inside of me and pushed with all of his might. I didn’t care how much this hurt because I just wanted that lip gone. This time, it worked!!!!!!!!!

It was go-time.

I started with a few pushes and he came down very fast. Everyone told me I was an excellent pusher and to just keep doing what I was doing. I was in a reclined position with my legs totally pulled back to open my pelvis as much as possible.

My contractions had actually slowed down in frequency a bit during pushing to the point that I didn’t even feel them starting and stopping anymore. The pain at this time was just from my whole body flexing to push and the bag of rocks that was descending. Everyone says pushing out a baby feels like a giant poop. But poop is smooth!! I could feel every bone poking me and scraping me as he came down. Sack of rocks, I tell you. I was also SO happy that I was pushing and that it was just up to me and my strength to get him out. It was probably this time that I burst all the blood vessels in my eyes. I used every bit of muscle in my body to send the energy to the birth canal, and I think that’s how I was able to push effectively. (Yay Body Pump classes!)

After just 20 minutes of pushing, everyone was cheering me on. “He’s almost here.” “Give it that last oomph.” Matt said he saw the head begin to emerge and thought “man, he is small!” but then the head kept emerging and emerging and getting bigger and bigger and then he understood the scale of what was happening.

I felt the ring of fire – lots of stinging – and with one or two more pushes, his head was out. I remember saying “ow ow ow” as the doctor turned his shoulders. Apparently he was in a very good birthing position. It was 3:38am!

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They pulled him out and put him right on my chest. I remember thinking “He’s so warm!” He was a jiggly little warm baby, and he started crying right away. His Apgar scores were 8 and 9.

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I said “remember to let the cord stop pulsing” and my doctor said he was watching it right then. My mom always told me that she was shocked when her doctor told her she had to push out the placenta, so when my doctor just pulled it out of me moments later, I was surprised at how easy it was. I was also surprised how sore I already was when it passed through!

Someone asked us if he had a name and Matt sort of choked his words, so I said “It’s Mazen Duke.” I think we were both on the verge of tears at that point. He was finally here.

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I had a second degree tear, and while I was distracted by my beautiful baby, I remember pausing to say “OW!” and “OW!” as my doctor numbed and stitched me up. It was over quickly though and thank goodness I had Mazen to keep my attention occupied or it would have been more traumatic.

After we had gazed at him for a good 15 minutes of skin to skin, the nurse took him away to be weighed. No one could believe he was 8 pounds! 20.5 inches long.

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They brought him back to me and I was able to start nursing him right then. I had some help latching him on and then he just started sucking. It was the cutest thing! He nursed on both sides for about 20 minutes each. The room was much calmer now, and I realized that Matt hadn’t gotten to hold him yet, so I passed him off and they laid together for almost an hour staring into each other’s eyes. I called my parents and sister and sent an email to our immediate friends and family announcing that he was here.

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Then the nurse and Matt gave him his first bath and he spent a little time under the warmer while he got his vitamin K shot and eye drops. Matt never left his side.

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The nurse kept coming to push on my uterus and help it contract down. This was not pleasant at all and felt like the contractions I had just been through. I could not believe how flat my stomach was! She eventually helped me up to pee, and my gosh, that was hard too. I couldn’t believe how quickly everything had swelled.

We said goodbye to Jen, and Matt started gathering our things to move to our postpartum room. We got there and settled and were finally left alone with our beautiful baby.

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As intense as my birth was, even minutes after he was born I was thinking it wasn’t so bad. I can’t think of anything but the hormones that would cause such a response! Aside from the cervical lip issue (which was somewhat serious), everything really did go pretty smoothly. Jen and our nurse said it was a pretty classic labor. I was very lucky not to encounter any serious complications, and Mazen did well the whole time.

I really can’t say enough good things about having a doula. Her experience was invaluable not just physically but emotionally too. She assured me things were happening for a reason and had biological explanations for what was happening (like my shaking and the grunting). She even knew when my contractions would start before I did! I asked her in the middle of the night “How do you know they are starting” – she just has that connection. Matt will be the first to tell you how glad HE was that we had a doula. If it had just been the two of us there together, we would have been so scared. I most definitely would have gotten pain relief – more from fear than the pain itself since it’s clear I could handle the pain. Matt looked to Jen for guidance and they worked well as a team. As he said in his post, he was there to remind me that this suffering was temporary and that I was strong enough to get through it. He was also my physical comfort, and I remember wanting to squeeze his hand and have him near me so he could sense our connection through touch without me having to speak. If I have one piece of advice to moms to be, it’s hire a doula.

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So would I go drug free again? I don’t know. A day later I was telling people no. A week later….as I write this story….I think maybe. 3 years from now? I might have the courage to try it again. My number one goal for going drug-free was just to experience what womankind has gone through for ages. That goal has now been achieved. Maybe next time I’ll get an epidural and have one of those A Baby Story labors where the women sleep until they are 10 cm and push with a smile on their faces. But the good news is that I don’t have to choose now or even with my next pregnancy. I will have until I’m in the moment of labor to decide, and if my next labor is anything like this one, I’m guessing I just don’t even think about an epidural as an option. It felt so off limits to me – not because I wouldn’t “give in” but because I didn’t even know how to ask for one, who to call or how it all worked. If I didn’t have time to fix my pony tail, how was I to focus on getting pain relief? It was almost easier just to keep doing what I was doing.

I don’t know if it was the yoga, the chiropractic, the walking, the moderate weight gain, the massages, the Body Pump, the birth story reading, the good nutrition, the positive attitude, the research, the childbirth classes or just luck. But I am so thankful for this experience – as intense as it was – and the empowerment with which it has left me as a woman.

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{ 216 comments… read them below or add one }

1 Allie@LiveLaughEat September 14, 2012 at 8:00 pm

You did an amaze-ing job, Mama! Congrats again.

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2 Lynne September 14, 2012 at 8:04 pm

Amazing story, Kath. You are just a super strong, focused and courageous person, and you and Matt will be awesome parents. Mazen looks precious!! Can’t wait to keep reading and learning about your wonderful journey :) Lynne

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3 Sarena (The Non-Dairy Queen) September 14, 2012 at 8:09 pm

Thank you for sharing something so incredibly personal Kath. This truly is a beautiful birthing story. I was 23 with I had my first son. Gosh I feel like I was so young back then. I wish I could do it over again. I was too young and naive to know that the doctors really did take over the whole experience and really it wasn’t the way it should have been. Same for my second child 2 1/2 years later which was worse than the first. I’m thankful that my boys are healthy and happy, and also happy that I had them when I did, but I wish I could go back and do it all over again knowing what I know now.

Congratulations, again, to you and your amazing family!

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4 Kel September 14, 2012 at 8:14 pm

Phew is right :). Thank you for fixing the comments!

As I have shared before, ny first baby was a preemie and I was 8 cms before anyone knew I was in labor. I thought I was just crampy from constipation! Ok, TMI but we are sharing here.

My second was a normal 39 and 2 day delivery. We got to the hospital and I was 6 cms, so I was given an injection of Stadol. THANK GOD or I do not know how I would have survived. I so admire you for your determination to do this drug free, and also recognize that you respect a woman’s right to choose drug free or not.

Now, this placenta thing. You didn’t have to push? I am so shocked by that! It hurt just as much as delivering a 8 lb 5 ounce 20.5 inch baby!

Thank you again for sharing your story. I teared up many times, and am so happy you have a beautiful family to show for all this hard work!

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5 Nikki September 14, 2012 at 8:18 pm

I’m seriously considering getting knocked up like _tonight_ after reading your birth story!!! It’s amazing, and beautiful, and inspiring!
And, more practically, thanks for putting it all in one so we didn’t have to suffer and wait for multiple posts:-)

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6 Kathy K September 14, 2012 at 8:21 pm

What a beautiful family! Congratulations!

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7 Lindsay September 14, 2012 at 8:38 pm

Beautifully written, Kath!!! Amazing job!!!! Mazen is gorgeous :)

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8 Amy in Canada September 14, 2012 at 8:42 pm

You earned that gorgeous boy!! Congratulations to you and Matt and thank you for sharing your life with us. Its a very special (and weird! lol) thing that we live in an age where someone we have never met can make us feel so connected to them. Mazen will be well loved by a group of people who will never lay eyes on him!

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9 Marci September 14, 2012 at 8:46 pm

great story and beautiful family! congrats again.

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10 Ginna September 14, 2012 at 8:51 pm

I can tell u getting an epidural doesn’t mean labor is a piece of cake! My water broke too at 39 weeks and I went right into active labor. It was intense. I got an epidural right away. It did numb my contractions but I ended up in labor for 17 hours and pushed for over 2! Also had a cervical lip, vacuum assist. Pushing was the hardest thing I’ve ever done! My little girl turned out to be just under 9 lbs no wonder! I give you props for going natural! I too was not prepared for recovery from a vaginal birth. I tore in two places and oh my the bleeding! It’s intense isn’t it?! Congrats to u and Matt!

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11 Cathy September 17, 2012 at 1:10 pm

I had my daughter natural and the episitomy is the worst besides the placenta. It has been over 30 yrs and I can still remember it. Ugh!! WIsh I had the knowledge Kath had. Great story.

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12 Ellory September 14, 2012 at 9:00 pm

Honestly it makes me a bit nervous to give birth! The tear especially ): But the reward at the end must be so worth it…congratulations and enjoy the fruit of your labor! Literally!

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13 Ilane September 14, 2012 at 9:07 pm

Congratulations to the three of you!!! You rock, mama! And your baby is precious.

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14 Susan September 14, 2012 at 9:11 pm

Thanks for sharing your story with us! You are so strong and even reading this, I felt your empowerment.

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15 Amy September 14, 2012 at 9:14 pm

You are an amazing writer. My last *baby* is 32 years old now and your story took me right back to their births. (also drug free) (I chuckled to myself when you said you were so happy to be at the hospital and ready for labor, something you’d waited your entire life for.) I remember thinking during transition about the phrase “climbing the wall” – I now know where it comes from. Believe me, I was in so much pain I wanted to climb the wall. We did not have a doula (nor had even heard of one). My husband did an amazing job helping, but I’m sure he would have loved to have the help and guidance of doula.
Twenty-five years later when I was in the room with my daughter during her labor, I could not believe she was Sleeping. During. Transition. Unbelievable is the only word for it. (because of the epidural) I could not get my mind wrapped around sleeping during transition.
I’m so happy you tried a drug free labor and did experience what womankind has gone through for ages. Not ever having the chance to experience labor with an epidural, I can’t recommend one over the other to you. We all know that the bottom line is just to bring a healthy baby into this world.
Congratulations.

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16 Katie @ Talk Less, Say More September 14, 2012 at 9:19 pm

Wow! What an amazing story. Congratulations to you! You guys are such a beautiful little family.

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17 Emily September 14, 2012 at 9:25 pm

Every woman deserves the birth that she wants, I’m glad that you and your “labor team” were able to achieve it! Congratulations! Best wishes to you and your family.

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18 Megan D September 14, 2012 at 9:27 pm

Empowering is right! Everyone tells me I am crazy to do my births drug free, but it is an amazing feeling (when you are done ;) Kinda like running. lol). And people always ask if I will do it again with the next one. Like you, I plan on taking each birth as they come. I absolutely love reading birth stories. So thank you for sharing yours. It is so amazing what our bodies can do. And from my experience, the second one is WAY easier (so hopefully yours will be as well). Even though my 2nd was a full pound heavier than my first (he was 8lbs 11 oz) my body was like, oh hey, I have done this before. Helps when it is a lot quicker too (24 hrs of labor with the first, about 6 with the second).

Also, I am very impressed because your water broke. That makes a world of difference (pain wise) because you no longer have that cusion. With my 1st I didn’t know that and the docs broke my water at 8cm dialeted to ‘speed things up’. It just took the pain to whole new level, but didn’t speed things up and I was in transition FOREVER (as you know, not a place you want to spend a lot of time). With my 2nd I educated myself more, read Ina May’s book, etc, and made sure they did not break my water until I was ready to push. That truly helped. Any who, I just wanted to reiterate how strong you are. Congrats on Mazen’s birth – he is adorable – you guys are such a wonderful family. Best wishes!

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19 Alison September 14, 2012 at 9:31 pm

What a great story, I’m so happy you had such a fabulous birth! And I completely agree about what a difference a doula makes, we didn’t have one the first time but did for Baby #2 and #3… she supports both mom AND dad. Partners definitely have their place supporting the birthing woman, but there’s something wonderful about an experienced, knowledgeable woman by your side. It’s how women have given birth for centuries, surrounded by women!

Congrats again, loved reading your story!

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20 Colleen September 14, 2012 at 9:31 pm

Beautiful birth story Kath! Thank you for sharing it with us. It is truly amazing what the female body can do. I had no clue what doulas were until a year ago. What amazing women to assistance other women with their births.

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21 Amy September 14, 2012 at 9:43 pm

So much of this sounds familiar. :-) I was group b positive too and needed antibiotics but my labor was so long that by the time my baby was born I had had about 5 bags of fluids. Not fun. Glad you got the labor you wanted! Thanks for sharing!

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22 Jennifer September 14, 2012 at 9:45 pm

Aww :( I cried. I had a home birth almost 8 months ago, and I completely know how you feel. The pain is unthinkable!! I’m so glad I experienced it but wow, was it intense. I never expected that. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story!

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23 Anna September 14, 2012 at 9:46 pm

Thank you so much for sharing such a personal story with us! I’ve been a long time KERF reader, and following your journey into motherhood has been so exciting :) I’m sure many readers feel the same way. I’m 25 and nowhere close to wanting children, in fact many details about pregnancy and labor scare me SO MUCH! But when the time comes, I plan on a drug free birth. Reading about your experience showed me that it can be done.You’re an amazingly strong woman, thank you for sharing with all of us!

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24 Aria September 14, 2012 at 9:57 pm

Thank you for sharing! My baby is 7.5 months old and I have not yet finished writing his birth story. We had similar experiences! (water broke early AM, delay going to hospital, doula, 3 am birth, boy, mine was 9#3oz. But 20.5″ too, second degree tear, no epi, not sure I’d do it again!).

It’s funny how all births are different and unique yet childbirth can also be SO similar. I remember the grunts and the growls and thinking that there would be no way to sit through an epidural so just push ;) on! Lots of birth memories as I read your story.

Congrats again and welcome to the club!

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25 KERF September 14, 2012 at 9:59 pm

That’s cool we had so much in common!

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26 Aria September 14, 2012 at 10:04 pm

I’m also a dietitian!

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27 Ann September 14, 2012 at 9:58 pm

Thank you so much for writing this. What an amazing story. At 22, I currently have no desire to have a kid but I feel like when I get to around 30 I might want to. This scares me but it is also AMAZING to read about how intense such a normal, human process is! Everyone alive in this world is a result of this incredibly unbelievable experience! My mom had an epidural with me and she’s always sort of nonchalant about how childbirth was, so it is *great* to get to read about a natural childbirth. Wow!!

I just thought I’d let you know that even for people who aren’t thinking Baby anytime soon, this was SUCH an amazing story!! Thanks!

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28 Ashley // Our Little Apartment September 14, 2012 at 10:03 pm

Okay. How is your kitchen that clean with a NEWBORN!? Haha.

Your birth story sounds so similar to my first with the lip (AHHH) and the looooooong labor. I am also undecided about #2 – I mostly wanted to see if I could do it without drugs and not have my first baby via c-section, but what if an epidural would make it awesome? Or would I not be able to push? Who knows! Though my son is two, so I’ll probably be having to think about this a little sooner than you. ;)

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29 Kari September 14, 2012 at 10:06 pm

I am really put off by you equating being empowered as a women to a drug free birth. Are you saying that a woman who has a c-section is less womanly? Honest question. I thought that we, as women, are all here to encourage each other. Your post smacks of exclusivity. This disappoints me.

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30 KERF September 14, 2012 at 10:18 pm

Not at all. Any women that has had a baby should feel empowered. I’m referring to birth in general, not how mine happened.

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31 Amanda September 14, 2012 at 10:30 pm

Let her have her story! Really she empowers me! The more birth stories I read that are drug free, the more I wish I would have done it!

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32 Janna September 14, 2012 at 10:30 pm

It’s important to remember that all women have different birth experiences and each one has a significant impact on our understanding of creation, womanhood and motherhood. Kath is expressing how natural child birth without drop rugs empowered her and impacted her.
It is likely you felt the same way. I know I did and I chose to have an epi after 10 hrs and almost 24 without sleep. It’s a primal feeling and a unique experience.
Also Kath writes from her perspective not from yours or mine so she is entitled to her own interpretation!
I sure appreciate your candidness Kath!

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33 Janna September 14, 2012 at 10:31 pm

Ugh. “Without drugs”… Not drop rugs. Sigh autocorrect.

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34 Susan September 15, 2012 at 7:14 am

That’s quite an assumption.
I didn’t get that sense at all from this post … I am a two-time c-section mama (I tried so hard both times for a vaginal birth) and I don’t feel slighted in any way to Kath’s description. Have I experienced labor/delivery as an empowered woman? Eh, it’s all about perspective. Heading into my third c-section I can tell you that natural labor (which I went through twice for many hours before the surgeries) is nothing like a c-section. One can’t even compare. Having said that, my empowerment as a woman comes from simply having a baby, no matter how it’s accomplished. Kath allowed room for this in her last sentence by not excluding anyone … epidural moms, c-section moms, etc. but by merely describing her interpretation of her own delivery.
I think what Kath chose to go through pretty much kicks a__ :)
Kath, I applaud your commitment to having a drug-free birth. Your story is beautiful and inspiring.

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35 K September 15, 2012 at 3:05 pm

She didn’t judge anyone else’s choices in this post! Lay off.

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36 Cortney September 22, 2012 at 2:39 am

It’s sad to me that a woman can’t talk about how much *her* birth meant to *her* without other women thinking it’s all about *them*.

In order for you to be satisfied she would have to not express her personal happiness over her birth experience. You are asking her to censor her feelings of accomplishment, empowerment, happiness, and relief because it makes you feel bad about your own birth.

This has nothing to do with you, or your birth. This is her birth story, her feelings, and you are choosing to be offended. You could choose to just be happy she had the experience she wanted. I’ve read some really offensive things on natural birthing sites that are outright judgmental and rude towards c-sections/hospital births/epidurals, and nothing in this post came close to any of that.

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37 Brie September 14, 2012 at 10:06 pm

What a beautiful story!

I’m not sure if I’m more excited or more scared after reading it, though, ha!

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38 Nicole September 14, 2012 at 10:25 pm

I feel like we had very similar experiences, especially about how sharp your mind was, just not being able to communicate! But, we’re all just humans and while every birth story, every pregnancy, woman, and baby is different… they’re also so similar. This is hands down the best thing you’ve ever wrote. Welcome to motherhood!

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39 Ann September 14, 2012 at 10:26 pm

Girl, I’m BAWLING. Even with all the blood and pain, you’re almost making me wanna have one ;)

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40 Jenn September 14, 2012 at 10:35 pm

:) good story. the mess, is definitely a reason not to have a home birth ;) I hope you are sitting more comfortably soon.

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41 Julie September 14, 2012 at 10:53 pm

Beautiful birth story! Thanks for sharing!

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42 Stacia September 14, 2012 at 10:56 pm

When you go natural does that mean you don’t have a catheter? Weird question maybe but I have never had a baby!

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43 KERF September 14, 2012 at 11:18 pm

Right, no need for one

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44 TinaD September 15, 2012 at 8:43 am

Catheter? Is that a thing? I had an epi and catheters were never discussed. I live in the burbs, so pretty much every woman I know is a mom, and I’ve never heard of a catheter being a routine part of L & D. (FYI, most of the people I know gave birth at Marth Jeff or UVA)

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45 KERF September 15, 2012 at 9:33 am

I always thought you had to get one with an epi, but I’m glad to hear that’s not the norm!

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46 TinaD September 15, 2012 at 9:50 am

If anyone had mentioned catheter to me, I’m not sure I would have chosen pain relief. Needles don’t scare me, but catheters? Yeesh! Congrats, by the way. He’s a beautiful baby!

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47 Tiffany September 15, 2012 at 8:25 pm

I’m a maternity nurse, and I’ve never heard of someone not getting a cath if they have an epidural. Sometimes they leave it in until after delivery and remove right after, or they do the “in and out” in order to relieve the bladder. They do it after the epidural is in, so you don’t feel it.

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48 Amy September 15, 2012 at 10:31 am

I got one when I had my epi. It was no big deal, really!

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49 Amy September 15, 2012 at 10:32 am

(at Martha Jeff)

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50 Ann September 15, 2012 at 10:50 am

I hear ya, Amy. I had one when I had my back surgery, and it’s not as bad as one might think, particularly when you have other pain to focus on (might be because there was an elderly man in the bed next to me getting one at the same time, and shouting in the loudest voice ever – totally tongue in cheek to make the rest of us gasping in pain laugh – that the nurses were taking his virginity, LOL. anyone else notice that sometimes you meet some real characters in the hospital when you most need it?!)

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51 Stacia September 15, 2012 at 10:33 am

I have a bladder disease so catheters do not sound good! Maybe I am thinking of someone who had a c section and just getting confused. At any rate, loved your story, you and Mazen look amazing and I hope to be in your boat someday!

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52 Kym September 15, 2012 at 3:00 pm

at my hospital, yes you get a catheter if you get an epidural. there’s not really a way around it – how will you get to the bathroom to pee if you’re numb from the waist down? so i don’t really see how you could avoid it, unless your labor is over with pretty shortly after you get the epidural. the way they do it at my hospital, is they don’t leave it in you – they come, put it in, empty the bladder, and remove it. repeat as needed (so yes, perhaps it would not be needed at all if short enough time)

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53 Katherine September 15, 2012 at 8:22 pm

Some women can still pee in a bedpan or if you have a quick delivery, you probably wouldn’t need to be catheterized. I had an epidural with both my babies and got up and peed as soon as the epidural wore off. I was only at the hospital for a few hours before delivery and didn’t need a catheter. :)

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54 lauren @ sassy molassy September 14, 2012 at 11:00 pm

Loved this story!! You are one strong woman. And your newborn family pics are adorable!

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55 Shay September 14, 2012 at 11:01 pm

Thank you for sharing. That was such a beautiful birth story. Well done!

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56 Priscilla September 14, 2012 at 11:01 pm

Thanks for sharing with us such a personal story Kath! Enjoyed reading every bit of it :>

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57 Kari September 14, 2012 at 11:06 pm

I find it so very brave of you to share not only your birth story, but the whole 9+ months of pregnancy.
This blog is such a great resource for moms and future moms to-be.
You all look so happy, and I cannot wait to see what is in store for you on this new adventure :)

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58 Kelley September 14, 2012 at 11:11 pm

Beautiful. Thank you for sharing! He is so cute, especially in stripes. Hope you are feeling good! You are a natural!

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59 Ashton September 14, 2012 at 11:35 pm

I loved reading your birth story. You did amazing. One of my friends was telling me about how when she gave birth she was so grossed out by all the muck and in the hospital here you do it all in the same room give birth and post birth stuff. You and your baby never leave that room unless you have a C section. And she remembers after giving birth thinking when can I move and someone can come clean up my bed cuz this is nasty. Its interesting how different hospitals deal with all that.

I must say I made it through that whole post with out balling and then at the end all the pictures of you three together couldn’t do it anymore. You all look so happy. I wish you the best of luck!

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60 Kathy September 15, 2012 at 12:08 am

Your story was beautiful. My daughter had a home birth about a year ago and it was so amazing. Don’t make a decision not to have one because it is messy. The midwives and doula that were there cleaned up everything.

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61 Julie September 15, 2012 at 12:10 am

Congratulations! I did my first au naturale (and had a third degree tear.) The second one came along 19 years later. Older and wiser and using the same doctor, I opted for induction a week early (dude was ready anyway), and an epidural. And came out of it with no injuries. Turns out the doc was older and wiser too. I’m glad I did it both ways (but if I were to do it again, I’d opt for pain free again!)

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62 Kathy W. September 15, 2012 at 12:18 am

I also loved reading the story–you described what it all feels like so perfectly. Interesting you compared it to a powerful magnet. That’s similar to how it felt to me, except at the time I described it as an old-fashioned watch spring tightening tighter and tighter in the area of my cervix until it was pretty excruciating, and then releasing.

And just think, you avoided all the potential complications of an epidural, like dangerously low blood pressure. Not to mention that everyone says that recovery is often much faster after a drug-free birth.

The good news is, second labors are, on average, half the length of first, because the cervix typically dilates twice as quickly.

(& got verklempt at your description of you & Matt being asked the name!)

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63 Robin September 15, 2012 at 12:22 am

Bravo! Your birth story is truly wonderful. I’m a college English teacher and have high standards, too! Thank you for the effort you put in to such beautiful blogs, as well. You’re so talented and generous with those talents. I just love the photos of you kissing Mazen. How blessed you and Matt are. We all share in your joy. And by the way, the last lines of your birth story are perfect.

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64 Holly P. @ A Year in Wichita September 15, 2012 at 12:43 am

Seriously, Kath…one of the best birth stories I have ever heard. So honest and I didn’t think it came of as touting one form of birth over another. Just a detailed recount of your own experiences. I’ve said it before, but I’ll say it again- I hope to document my pregnancy/birth experiences as well and as honestly as you have. Can’t say thank you enough!!! Also…can’t say CONGRATULATIONS enough! Mazen is beautiful!

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65 Chelsea September 15, 2012 at 1:16 am

Beautiful!

People always give me the side eye when I say that pushing felt great but you experienced that too! Child birth is amazing and I’d do it again in a heartbeat-I just don’t want another baby-ha!

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66 Lisa @ bakebikeblog September 15, 2012 at 1:18 am

Thankyou for sharing your story!!! Sounds like quite an amazing experience :)

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67 Monica September 15, 2012 at 1:25 am

Kath, beautifully written! And such a phenomenal story. You did such a fantastic job and as creepy as this is to say since I am a stranger, but I am proud of you. A drug-free labor really pushes you to your limits.

I share so many common threads with your story, it brings back so many memories!

I didn’t feel as present as you did though. I have read that one’s body produces natural drugs to help protect them and I so believe that happened to me at a certain point. I was stuck at 9 cm for over 7 hours. I couldn’t lie or sit down that entire time. I was either leaning over a birthing ball, rocking side to side, on the toilet or in the tub. However, I felt so gone. My only sense was touch. It was so strange to feel so far away, yet present with every sensation happening to my body.

Your line about the shock of things not being closer to the end made me laugh. Every time I labored on the toilet I would work on such intense contractions and then reach down and feel for a head thinking, where the heck is it already?! Ha, little did I know how deep and hard I needed to push to get that head.

Again, wonderful story! Thank you so much for sharing!

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68 KERF September 15, 2012 at 2:06 am

7 hours at 9… wow!

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69 Mandy September 15, 2012 at 1:27 am

Oh so so happy for you. You had one rockin’ doula! My homebirth inspired me to take doula training and I aspire to be as good as your Jen. Sounds like you had a great birth team all around, and you will be able to tell yourself for the rest of your days that YOU did it! Biggest accomplishment for me personally. Well, that and motherhood. Whew. xo

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70 Averie @ Averie Cooks September 15, 2012 at 2:36 am

Kath this is an amazing birth story and I read every single word and with each word, I was brought back to my own birth story, some things that I would have never remembered unless I read it…from the nurses pushing on my belly after the birth and it not being pleasant to literally not even having the strength to fix my own hair during it all…wow, the details in this are just amazing and you will thank yourself later (and I thank you!).

I am so happy for you that you had the natural birth you prepared so intensely and carefully for – you never know what’s going to happen, but if someone could plan, study, and prepare her way into one, you did everything you possibly could and as you said, everything you did, all came together and it all worked out beautifully and an 8-pounder, nice work, mama :)

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71 Mary September 15, 2012 at 3:32 am

I’m reading this at 26 weeks, and it made me cry pregnant hormonal tears. It also scared me, I have to be honest, but thank you for writing this and being honest. My mother describes labour as “not as bad as period pains” – I think she’s forgotten how it can be! My own labour will be far more medical than yours, for various reasons and complications, but thanks for giving me a realistic idea of what it is like.

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72 Gina September 15, 2012 at 8:47 am

I’m 24 weeks and had the same good cry after. Reading this left me a bit scared but, strangely, very excited about what’s to come. Thanks for such an open and honest account. Congratulations on baby Mazen! :)

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73 Steph September 16, 2012 at 9:41 pm

That’s funny about your mom . . . my mother makes the births of my brother and me sound like she went to the day spa and on the way out they handed her a baby. My father has indicated that as someone who bore witness to events, this is not entirely how things went down :) I suspect that her desire for grandchildren might have something to do with her tendency to romanticize.

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74 Mary September 17, 2012 at 5:10 am

That did make me laugh, Steph :-)

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75 Kristen September 15, 2012 at 4:20 am

Thank you SO MUCH for sharing your story. Insightful and inspiring!

2 questions: why didn’t you have to deliver the placenta? I thought everyone did….would be curious to learn more here. The next question is financial, and if you don’t want to answer I understand. How does hiring a doula work? Is that covered by insurance or out of pocket? Would be curious to learn more here as well. Bravo, Kath. Bravo!

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76 KERF September 15, 2012 at 5:09 am

I delivered it, but I didn’t have to push. He just kind of pulled it out.

And the doula is out of pocket. Most are around $500 for the birth.

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77 Susan September 15, 2012 at 7:16 am

The cost also depends on this area in which you live. Here our doulas run from $250 – $500 …. worh EVERY penny.

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78 Amanda Darby September 15, 2012 at 2:38 pm

Eh, I live in Seattle, and doulas are around $1200!!!! Lucky!

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79 Jennifer September 17, 2012 at 10:56 am

Another doula question- can you hire a doula if you plan on getting an epidural? Or are they only for if you intend to go drug free?

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80 KERF September 17, 2012 at 11:14 am

They are more often used with drug-free, but I think most would be agreeable to any birth plan options. Jen always told me she would never stop me from getting one if that’s the direction I wanted to go in the moment

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81 Allison September 15, 2012 at 4:33 am

Thanks for sharing your story!

My little one is 9 weeks today and my labor started out a lot like yours…. but we’re overseas without the possibility of a doula and no birth classes. So, I was all pumped for a drug free labor and then I had transition like contractions and was only at 4cm. I ended up getting an epidural, but somehow it sped up my labor. My son was born 3 hours ish after I got the epidural. Even though I didn’t feel all the pain, it was still amazing to know my body just took over and did it. It’s amazing to me that we can so clearly see the complexity of Creation in childbirth – how the body and hormones and everything work together through all the pain and then to help you forget how painful it was. :)

Congratulations!! Mazen is adorable.

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82 robin September 15, 2012 at 5:13 am

You cant tell anyone what its really like they just have to experience it. ( I will tell you this, the2nd one is easier)

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83 Nicole September 15, 2012 at 7:50 am

Sorry if this question sounds completely lame (6 wks preggo here so all of this is new to me!)…Why do the nurses have to push down on your uterus after delivery? Sounds painful/unpleasant as you described.

Thanks for sharing your story — it is much appreciated! Congrats on a beautiful baby!! He is too cute :)

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84 KERF September 15, 2012 at 8:10 am

I believe it’s to help it shrink down, prevent hemorrhage, and expel blood.. Definitely unpleasant!

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85 JessicaE September 15, 2012 at 10:35 am

I had a birth similar to yours, water broke, strep b, no pain medicine. The main difference is I had Pitocin given. And I was surprised to read this because no one pushed down on my stomach/uterus.. so it doesn’t happen all the time.. wonder why some do it and some don’t.

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86 Jaspreet September 15, 2012 at 11:24 am

Different doctors have different methods. My first birth, in Toronto, I had Pitocin afterwards and no pushing. My second, in Minneapolis, the opposite.

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87 KERF September 15, 2012 at 8:24 am

And Congrats!

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88 NM September 15, 2012 at 9:40 am

Thanks!

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89 Shelley September 19, 2012 at 9:14 pm

I did it myself so the nurses wouldn’t have to help. You just sort of massage/knead your belly.

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90 Megan September 15, 2012 at 8:07 am

Congratulations on Mazen and thanks for writing this post. I’m 38.5 wks pregnant with my first and anxiously awaiting labor! My goal is to go natural and it’s encouraging and helpful to hear realistic accounts from other people, I feel like so much you read in the books or hear from friends leaves out the unexpected parts so thanks for your honesty and for sharing the whole story!

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91 Kylene September 15, 2012 at 8:10 am

Thank you so much for your beautiful Birth Story and your honesty!! I have to say though, reading this made me even more thankful that I had an epidural with all 4 of my pregnancies!! :) Mazen is so adorable….looking at your pictures and that PRECIOUS video you posted from the hospital makes me so want to have another baby. There is nothing like those first few days/weeks of getting to know your little one.

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92 Allison k September 15, 2012 at 8:21 am

:-). Why could no one believe he was eight pounds?

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93 KERF September 15, 2012 at 8:24 am

Because my stomach just wasn’t that big the whole pregnancy. I was only up about 20 lbs total when I delivered. Dr. Said he must have gotten the perfect flow of nutrients :)

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94 Emily September 15, 2012 at 9:29 am

Yay! I had the same comments too :)

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95 Allison September 15, 2012 at 3:05 pm

Probably true for you :P, but I also gained around 20 pounds with both kids (8 pounder and 9 pounder) and I exercised a ton but ate pretty much like crap! I think people just carry how they are going to carry, no matter what the nutritional. My sister ate pretty perfectly and gained 40 pounds each time!

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96 Allison September 15, 2012 at 3:06 pm

*nutrition*

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97 KERF September 15, 2012 at 4:07 pm

I agree, sometimes it just is what it is

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98 Allison September 15, 2012 at 5:06 pm

You did great, Kath. Just so happy for you that all went the way you wanted it to!

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99 Diane September 16, 2012 at 3:52 pm

I agree, sometimes people just naturally gain more than others during pregnancy, and others gain a lot from poor nutrition. I am a naturally thin person, ate healthy during my pregnancies, and gained about 45 lbs with each pregnancy. I lost it all both times with good eating and exercise, it is just what my body does during pregnancy.

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100 ann September 15, 2012 at 8:54 am

Kath,

Thanks always for your honesty and for sharing with us, your readers. You are empowering! And the best! I loved reading this. Enjoy your time with that little man. My son started in the Marine Corps at Quantico this week. And I am missing him tremendously but am so proud.

I would be honored to get to meet you someday, maybe on a visit down to Quantico.

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101 Kori September 15, 2012 at 8:56 am

You are positively incredible and strong, Kath!! I would be lying if I said that I am not absolutely terrified of giving birth one day, but your blog will be such an invaluable resource. I cannot fully imagine all that you experienced, but Mazen is so precious. Thank you for allowing your readers to be with you throughout your pregnancy and now the birth of your and Matt’s son. Congratulations again!

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102 Lauren @The Homeostatic Mindset September 15, 2012 at 9:09 am

WOW! That’s so crazy! I think I’m getting used to reading birth stories because I didn’t feel as traumatized (or have to take breaks while reading it, lol, like I had to with other’s I have read), so I’m getting braver :) Glad you were so brave!

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103 Ashley @ Hudson on the Potomac September 15, 2012 at 9:19 am

Oh my goodness, I’m crying!!! What a beautiful story Kath!!! Thank you so much for sharing your story with us and for being so inspiring!

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104 Emily September 15, 2012 at 9:29 am

Girl, you are amazing. Early in my pregnancy I had thought I could try it without an epidural, but once I was 37 weeks the doctor checked me to see if I was dilated and THAT hurt so much that I cried and I realized if I couldn’t handle THAT, that I would most likely need an epidural. I’m so impressed you stuck with it and did it! Congrats, he is absolutely beautiful – and I LOVE your fushia sweater!

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105 LYO-Town September 15, 2012 at 9:33 am

What a great story. I appreciate the detail that you went into and that you didn’t sugar-coat it. You should be proud!!

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106 Claire September 15, 2012 at 9:36 am

I loved reading your birth story! Thank you for sharing it with us.

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107 Steph September 15, 2012 at 9:37 am

There really is something about acupuncture! My sister in law went into labor shortly after she had it done (she was a week over her due date). Interesting!

Great story, Kath. Glad that you made it through and were able to have the experience you wanted. Congrats on a healthy and adorable little baby! :)

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108 Maryz September 15, 2012 at 9:43 am

Such a beautiful story! Thanks for sharing…Mazen is so beautiful! Nice work mama!

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109 char eats greens September 15, 2012 at 10:18 am

GREAT birth story, Kath!! Wow, such an inspiration for me who will be in that situation in 2 months. I really want a drug-free birth too, but I don’t have a doula. I’ve heard how amazing they are, and it’s definitely something I wish my husband and I had considered sooner. We have a midwife though, so I’m hoping that she will make the experiencing awesome, too.

I cannot believe how detailed you made this or how much you remember of it! I’m hoping with all these birth stories I’m reading lately, it will help me prepare for my own!! I’m still not 100% mentally prepared for childbirth yet, so I better get on that soon!

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110 Kate September 15, 2012 at 10:20 am

I loved this–Thank you! Women are absolutely amazing….aren’t we???

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111 Ashley @ My Food N Fitness Diaries September 15, 2012 at 10:34 am

Beautiful story. Awesome job mama! Congratulations again!

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112 Nikki T September 15, 2012 at 11:02 am

Thank you, thank you , thank you for sharing this incredibly personal part of your life!! I couldn’t appreciate it more as a Mama-to-be with only 7.5 weeks to go until my d-day! You are amazing, women are amazing and I hope to have an amazing drug free birth as well. In 7.5 weeks (give or take ;)) I hope I will remember as much as you have here so I can write myself a beautiful birth story reminder of the greatest day of our lives :)

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113 Mel September 15, 2012 at 11:17 am

Congrats on your adorable baby!
Thanks for sharing your birth story – I have never seen one go into so much detail online.
And how lucky you were to get the birth and healthy baby you had hoped for – many women do everything “right” and still end up with complications, preemies, bedrest, etc.

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114 Lindsay September 15, 2012 at 11:18 am

I loved this story!! My daughter is 16 months old and I had her naturally too. Your story brought back so many of those same emotions. We are thinking about #2 now and your story has got me excited about the whole journey again :) and thinking seriously about a doula, we didn’t have one last time and I think that it would have been more of a team effort if we had, like you said. Congratulations!!

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115 K. September 15, 2012 at 11:18 am

Great to read, Kath!

If anyone has time to answer a quick question: Are there pain management options during birth that DON’T involve an epidural? I think that L&D are still years off for me, but I am curious. Obviously in the case of a c-section an epidural is necessary and normal, but can you get some level of pain relief during a vaginal delivery outside of an epidural?

[p.s.- The women I know who have had epidurals during delivery did not have catheters.]

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116 KERF September 15, 2012 at 2:06 pm

There are systemic drugs but my research said they often can make baby sleepy and things

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117 Lindsey October 19, 2012 at 10:45 pm

There are other pain relief options, many that most people don’t think of are non-medicinal options, such as counter pressure on your back, ie packs, hearing pads, robozo (the “sling” that is in one of Kath’s pictures and so on. Medicinal options are wide and have varying effects on both the mother and the fetus. Laughing gas is effective in about 30% of women, it leaves the body very quickly with minimal effects to the infant. Demorol, Morphine, Fentanyl etc can all be given via IV but they can make the baby drowsy and have other effects. I suggest doing a lot of research before deciding what you would be comfortable with and what you would be willing to compromise on if a need arises :)

If a woman has an epidural she will have a catheter at some point or another, some without ever knowing it even happened.

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118 Elisabeth September 15, 2012 at 11:20 am

What a beautiful story, Kath! It sounds like an amazing experience – nice job :D

Love the last pic of the new family ;)

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119 Maggie September 15, 2012 at 11:22 am

I’m 24 weeks pregnant with my second baby and had a natural birth with my first that sounds SO MUCH like yours. Water broke. Within two hours, I was having almost back to back contractions for nine more hours that were so intense it felt like my body was breaking (got the same comment from my doula — that she rarely sees that). It was all a blur of incredible pain and primal grunting! And, the funniest coincidence is that, at the beginning of it all, I, too, exclaimed, “Bring on the pain!” Here’s a comforting piece of info. I met with my doula last week, and she said that labors where your water breaks before the labor TEND to be more intense because your sack of waters acts as something of a cushion. So when it’s gone, you may feel more of an intense downward pressure (body breaking!). She also said that subsequent labors are generally much shorter and easier. She said she didn’t even really have to push with her second. Of course, nothing is certain, but I’m feeling much more comfortable making the decision to do this naturally again. Also, with all the research you did, I’m sure you know all the benefits to the baby — reduced c-section rate, etc. So, while it is truly the hardest thing we will ever do, we are not just doing it for us. We are doing it for them, too. (Though I have absolutely no judgement towards anyone who wants pain meds — we live in a world of modern medicine, and we have every right to use it!) Congrats! Enjoy the wonderful adrenaline and Oxycontin high that comes for the first couple of weeks!

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120 Jaspreet September 15, 2012 at 11:22 am

Great birth story, Kath! :-)

I can’t believe you were brave enough to wear light-coloured shorts outside after your waters breaking. After mine broke early with DD #1 I was spurting and leaking until she was born. I have all the luck.

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121 KERF September 15, 2012 at 1:53 pm

I had some protection on :)

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122 Kasia (Chicago) September 15, 2012 at 11:41 am

Thanks for sharing. I am 37 weeks along and always enjoy hearing a great birth story. Yours is truly inspirational, and well said. Appreciate all the little sidenotes and details!

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123 SaraG. September 15, 2012 at 12:00 pm

Wow! Kath, what a beautiful birth story! I was laughing out loud and crying at moments. You and Matt are already aMAZE-ing patents! I am so proud of you both (and I miss my friend)!

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124 Theresa September 15, 2012 at 12:01 pm

What a beautiful story!
You are an inspiration to all!
Congrats and thanks for sharing!
PS: I am in tears!

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125 Becca September 15, 2012 at 12:24 pm

Kath, I loved reading your story. For a nulliparous woman, I learned a lot. Thank you, so so much for sharing your baby journey with the blogosphere (and congratulations on having the birth you hoped for!).

Question: Was the day before you began labor (the 5th, I believe) the first time you ever had acupuncture to specifically promote delivery? Thanks in advance!

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126 KERF September 15, 2012 at 1:52 pm

Yes, I would not have done it until past my due date

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127 Jessie September 15, 2012 at 1:00 pm

As somebody nowhere even CLOSE to baby phase of life, this was inspiring and beautiful to read. Thanks for sharing, Kath.

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128 Esther September 15, 2012 at 1:03 pm

Congrats to you! You did it! My sixth child is 3 months old and I never tire of birth stories. Mine were home births so I can relate to alot of what you wrote, the hair, the head looking so small, having someone there like a doula for support more for the hubby than me. Thanks for writing!

P.S. may be it’s just me but by the time you get to baby 5 or 6 you will cry alot while pregnant at the idea of having to do “it” again! Haha!

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129 Annie September 15, 2012 at 1:22 pm

Congrats kath! I am just curious as to how moderate weight gain helped you have an easy delivery? I know you do lots of research so I was wondering what you found!

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130 KERF September 15, 2012 at 1:51 pm

I have no idea… Although I hear that in some cases gaining a ton can lead to complications

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131 Claire September 15, 2012 at 4:32 pm

I had to laugh at that part – I weighted 250 when I delivered, and I didn’t do anything like body pump while I was pregnant, ate plenty of ice cream the whole pregnancy (and I didn’t have GD or anything close) and I managed a drug-free delivery even with almost 60 hours of labor (read: no sleep for almost three days!) and no doula! I even stood up through the majority of my labor (best way to manage my contractions) and it wasn’t that bad- I never even thought of asking for an epidural, and I only had to push for 45 minutes (my team also told me I was a great pusher, lol).
And of course you can be like Sherri from LoveHouseLove and be in exceptional shape (she looked AMAZING at the end of her pregnancy), and both she and Clara would have died without an emergency c-section. It really is luck!

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132 KERF September 15, 2012 at 4:45 pm

I’m not sayin it isn’t!

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133 Erin September 16, 2012 at 11:40 pm

Clearly Kath was responding to a question that was posed to her. Life itself is all about luck but that doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t try to take precautions and try to live a healthy life.

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134 ES September 15, 2012 at 2:02 pm

Sounds like you got exactly what you wanted! Congrats! So lucky!

Two questions: 1. Did they let you push in any position or just flat on your back? and 2. Looking back, are you still glad you had the big breakfast, was it worth the throwing up for the energy it provided?

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135 KERF September 15, 2012 at 2:06 pm

I was allowed to push any way but this reclined position was best given the cervical lip. And definitely glad I had breakfast and all the snacks

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136 Wendy September 15, 2012 at 2:06 pm

Thank you Kath for a wonderful, honest, and almost tangible story.

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137 Tracy September 15, 2012 at 2:13 pm

Wow! Amazing story and very well written! You have such a gift in writing, Kath.

I have 4 kids and 3 birth experiences (twins for the last one). I was lucky enough to have 3 different experiences: and induction with epidural, drug free natural labor, and a c-section. The drug free natural labor was by far the best experience for me!

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138 Julie H. of Spinach and Sprinkles September 15, 2012 at 2:13 pm

L.O.V.E. the birth story! I just devoured every little detail! ……Your Mental Sidebar is spot.on.! I remember my mind thinking pretty clear when I was in transition and pushing but being COMPLETELY unable to communicate at all. I remember a very strong pull in my head to be polite and say hello & be kind to the nurses that were coming in and out of the room but being completely unable to speak or even look at them- my eyes would close and all I could do was breathe and push—- such a great description. That part really surprised me about birth. And the swelling- oh heavens the swelling. (the lady parts AND my entire face, from bursting blood vessels in my whole face- those bruises were no fun!)
You did an amazing job getting your birth story in words- every woman’s is different and I value your true view of the experience- it was yours (and Mazen’s!… and Matt’s too)!! Wonderful job, Kath!

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139 Victoria B September 15, 2012 at 2:18 pm

Congratulations on delivering the way you wanted and getting the joyous result of a healthy baby boy!

I’m wondering about the evolution of BERF and KERF now that Mazen is here. I remember a post not too long ago about not becoming a “Mommy Blogger” and I was glad to see that you had decided to keep things a little more private regarding Mazen. He’s not even two weeks old and he already has an online presence. You can google his name and see various photos of your families as well as links for this website as well as others. This makes me incredibly sad. At what point does documenting your life for your adoring fans trump his right to privacy? Have you considered that he may very well google his name once he’s older and see everything that has been written (both good and bad) about his entire family? Have you considered how you will handle this later on in his life?

I am so torn about this topic because I like the birth stories and videos as much as the next person. I have really enjoyed following this blog through out your entire pregnancy, but sometimes I do feel sort of icky when watching something so incredibly private and intimate and I don’t even know you in real life. As a blogger, how do you handle this?

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140 KERF September 15, 2012 at 2:32 pm

I have given this lots of thought and am comfortable with my decisions thus far. As he gets older I think privacy will be more important than as an infant.

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141 Amy @ changing the now September 15, 2012 at 3:23 pm

I think the reason i love Kath’s blog so much is because she is so open and transparent with her posts, what you see is what you get!

If Kath documented the whole pregnancy and then Mazen was made to be this big private thing, it would upset a lot of readers as we follow Kath’s life and Mazen is a part of that.

I understand about Mazen’s privacy being questioned but i personally would have loved to had my birth and early days documented so i could look back on it.

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142 Meredith September 20, 2012 at 11:53 am

I think that we live in a different time now, a time where so much of our lives can be lived online. Sometimes I think that’s a bad thing, but not in the case of Kath’s baby blog. In a way, I think this migration of personal experiences to the Internet makes more people feel connected because you can read about what others – usually strangers to you – are going through, and you find that their experiences are not that different from yours.

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143 KERF September 20, 2012 at 12:06 pm

Well stated Meredith :)

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144 Amy-Nutrition by Nature September 15, 2012 at 3:01 pm

Congratulations!!! I’m so happy for you that you were able to have the birth that you desired! I admire you and your determination to have a drug free birth. Way to go! With my first I transitioned early too, around 4-5 cm, after several hours of that I ended up with an epidural. It was so intense so again I admire your strength!! What an exciting time in your life. Enjoy your little guy. :-)

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145 Amy @ changing the now September 15, 2012 at 3:08 pm

Kath, thank you so much for sharing this with us all, you were amazing! I gave birth last year and feel like i relived it all again, unfortunately i had complications so didn’t get to have the drug free birth i wanted but the safety of me and the baby made this decision less of an issue… i feel inspired to write my birth story on my blog now… even it was 11 months ago, i did journal it and think it will be nice to share with people who are waiting or wanting to give birth some day.

Thank you again… you rocked!

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146 Emma September 15, 2012 at 3:11 pm

Kath, I want to thank you for writing this! I didn’t/won’t have children and I’ve never read or been told a whole birth story from a personal perspective like this. I feel like I really know what’s it’s like now! I mean, not from experience, of course, but you described it so well.

I’m not trying to compare the two experiences, but I thought it was funny that some of it reminded me of my gall bladder, which I’m having removed next week! When I saw you laboring in a bent-over, face-down position, I really related. When I’m having an attack, sometimes that’s the only position that can bring a little relief from the intensity! I also related to feeling like you’re sane and alert in your own head but not really able to communicate. I think at a time like that the animal really does take over. During my last attack my husband was trying to comfort me and asking me questions, and I really couldn’t answer him. I would just kind of pause and manage “I don’t know” and almost kind of ignore the verbal communication part!

Bravo, congrats, he’s wonderful.

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147 KERF September 15, 2012 at 4:08 pm

I’m sorry to hear about your gallbladder troubles : (

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148 Emma September 15, 2012 at 10:20 pm

Oh, thank you, Kath! My doctor advised surgery; it’s been bothering me for nearly a year and a half, but he said its fairly common, especially for women my age, and I should be fine. I’m looking forward to that!

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149 Angela G. September 15, 2012 at 3:12 pm

Oh Kath, what a powerful and inspiring birth story! I felt like I experienced the entire thing with you while I was reading it. I can’t tell you how many times I got goose bumps or teared up while reading and I couldn’t move on until I had read this post in its entirety. So beautiful and detailed. Thank you for opening up your world to all of us. Congrats to you and Matt on this new adventure. You are both doing a wonderful job with little Mazen! :) I’m so excited to watch him grow and learn via your blog.

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150 Katie September 15, 2012 at 3:33 pm

This is the most raw and real birth story I have ever read on a blog, and I really appreciate that. Thank you so much for sharing it with us! I don’t have any children but I think everyone should be more aware of what real birth is like – especially men, I hope some men end up reading this! It would be good for my husband to read. ;) especially the part about how much it ended up empowering you.

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151 Amelia September 15, 2012 at 3:59 pm

Beautiful story! Thank you for sharing with the world. :)

My favorite line: “Sack of rocks, I tell you.”

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152 Laura September 15, 2012 at 4:08 pm

Great birth story! Who was taking pictures right after the birth? Did you guys pass off the camera to a nurse?

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153 KERF September 15, 2012 at 4:45 pm

Our doula

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154 Catherine September 15, 2012 at 4:42 pm

With tears of happiness in my eyes, I want to tell you how happy I am for you and Matt, and your whole family! Thank you so much for sharing your birthing experiences. I always imagined getting an epidural when I have my first baby, but your story has me rethinking that. Your honesty and openness about everything (the blood, gunk, and vomit) is so appreciated. It gives me a better sense of what labor is really like, as well as what I have to look forward to. Thank you again, Kath. You’re an inspiration! :)

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155 Claire September 15, 2012 at 4:44 pm

Congratulations! It sounded like you were very lucky to have a short and straightforward labor! I’m sorry that your team let you push that long before you were fully dilated – that sounds just horrible! I also had a “lip” and the urge to push before I was ready, but I had a fantastic nurse that helped me manage to hold off until I reached 10 cm. And sorry to hear about the burst blood vessels; I had all sorts of burst capillaries in my neck and face from pushing (even though I only pushed less than an hour) so I feel your pain. I asked the doctor about it the next day and he said with was from “ineffective” pushing (i.e. straining my upper body instead of just pushing through my lower body/uterus) that caused it, but I guess it still worked pretty well for the both of us, considering! :)
And I can’t imagine laboring while puking, more power to you! It makes me SO glad I didn’t try and eat anything during my last twelve hours of labor. It’s funny how it’s so different for different women, I thought labor would be messier for me but I didn’t experience any of the blood or TMI fluids that you mentioned over my marathon (almost three day!) labor.
How has your recovery been so far? I also had two degree tears, and I was amazed how normal I felt even a few days out, despite all the stitches, etc. I think I went for my first long walk with my baby girl in the Moby wrap the day after getting home from the hospital! I found walking to be the best way to ease back into exercise postpartum.
I’m glad you got the labor experience you wanted, and I wish you and Mazen nothing but the best in the days to come!

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156 Marcia September 15, 2012 at 4:55 pm

I gotta tell ya, I had a civilized first birth. Water broke, no contractions, went to the hospital at three cm. apparently I was contracting but I have a high pain tolerance. Got the epidural at 8 cm, and all in all he was born 12 hrs after my water broke.

Number two…yeah he was born one hour and ten min after getting to the hospital. No time for an epidural and the hub was gone for half that time because he was dropping our son off at a friends, it sucked rocks.

But hey,one push and he was out, and recovery was much faster. So there is that.

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157 Annie September 15, 2012 at 5:25 pm

Not only are you a good pusher, you are a very skilled writer. Thank you for sharing your story – I learned a lot, and was very moved by how emotional an experience you had. (I am childless-by-choice so have no first hand understanding of labor and delivery.) Congratulations on the birth of your son! May you have a lifetime of happiness.

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158 Jeanie September 15, 2012 at 6:05 pm

Beautifully told.

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159 Cara September 15, 2012 at 6:05 pm

Thank you for sharing, Kath. My due date is tomorrow and I’ve very much enjoyed reading your journey as you’ve shared it, not only your labor and Mazen’s delivery but also your pregnancy. I am currently waiting for labor to start and also hoping for a drug-free birth. We wavered on whether or not to hire a doula because of the extra $, but we ended up hiring someone. Your birth story has really validated that decision, already! :) Thank you for your honesty and congratulations, he is BEAUTIFUL!

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160 Melissa September 15, 2012 at 7:29 pm

Such an incredible birth story! Congratulations to all of you … and welcome to the world, Mazen!

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161 Cheryl September 15, 2012 at 8:11 pm

Thanks for sharing this. I loved reading every word!

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162 Leila @ Spinach and Skittles September 15, 2012 at 9:54 pm

Wow Kath, I’m so proud of you! I love how thorough your birth story is, it really helps me get in the mindset for what will be happening in the next 2-4 weeks! And I LOVE that you walked to beer run and Matt carried all that beer back home! I just picked up a bottle of Elysian Dark o’ the Moon (pumpkin stout) for after delivery. I’ve never tried it, but I’m an Elysian fan, pumpkin beer lover, and stout lover, so I am pretty excited to celebrate with it ;)

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163 Veronica September 15, 2012 at 10:32 pm

Kath,

I read this shortly after it was first posted and comments weren’t showing. I thought you’d closed it to comments and I thought “Good for her. Nobody needs to elaborate on something already so beautiful.” Then I came back to read it again (because it’s that good!) and saw the comments open. So here is my comment!
Excellent post, wonderful birth. I KNEW you could do it.

With my 2nd child I had a drug-free labor and I distinctly remember telling my best friend a few hours post-partum that I’d “never ever ever do that again!” (Even though it was only 4 hours long, it was the most intense, painful, powerful thing I’ve ever been though.) But now he is almost 3 years old and I think I would do it again. Each time you get a little wiser and that makes the process go smoother, so if you do have another drug-free labor at least you know what to expect and what you’ll do differently.

ps. I enjoyed the snarky comment asking if you regretted having breakfast – if it was “worth” throwing up… ugh. Some people…

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164 Kristin September 15, 2012 at 10:45 pm

Did you feel pressure to have a natural birth because of your health blog?

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165 KERF September 15, 2012 at 11:08 pm

Not at all

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166 Suzanna September 15, 2012 at 10:46 pm

Congratulations!! He is adorable! I had my first drug free and the second with an epidural you will know what is right at the time. Either way is difficult but so worth it :). Enjoy every minute they grow up so quickly mine are 15 and 9.

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167 Shannon Bell September 16, 2012 at 12:17 am

Thanks for sharing Kath! What a great story…and I am so happy YOU’RE so happy with everything! Enjoy the baby bliss!

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168 RunEatRepeat September 16, 2012 at 12:22 am

I’ve been waiting for your birth story! Beautifully written.
I cannot even imagine how painful giving birth is, but your descriptions are amazing (and scary).

Take care <3

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169 Lou September 16, 2012 at 3:00 am

This is such a lovely and inspiring birth story, Kath – I am training to become a doula and I LOVE your beautiful comments about Jen…. I would love to use your story as an example for future clients – would this be OK with you?

(I got OBSESSED with reading birth stories before the birth of my son…. and I STILL love reading them. Brings all the emotions of labour/birthing right back – it’s lovely!)

Enjoy that little bundle – enjoy enjoy enjoy, they are tiny for but a blink of an eye.

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170 KERF September 16, 2012 at 3:50 am

Of course! Share away. Matt has a fathers perspective coming Soon too

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171 Pam September 16, 2012 at 6:55 am

Wow what an amazing story! I’m wiping away tears right now.
Congrats Kath and Matt!! Mazen is such a cute little boy :)

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172 Jennifer September 16, 2012 at 7:50 am

What a wonderful story and so well written! I felt as if I were right there as I was reading. Despite the pain, it seems like everything went well. I’m so happy for you that you got to have that experience.

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173 Diane September 16, 2012 at 3:56 pm

Thanks for sharing your birth story and pictures of your handsome little man. I laughed out loud when you said if felt like a bag of rocks coming out – so right on! With my first kid I had an epidural and didn’t feel anything. The second kid came too fast and I didn’t have time for an epidural and had I remember screaming as I started pushing “I can feel everything!” meaning every bone in his body.

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174 Abby A September 16, 2012 at 3:58 pm

Making the decision to go drug free or not is so hard! But I’m so proud of you, and happy for your family! He is so amazing. A-Mazen! :-)

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175 marcie September 16, 2012 at 4:25 pm

gorgeous!!!
Blessings and thank you.

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176 Amelia September 16, 2012 at 4:44 pm

Reading this brought back so many memories of my own childbirth experience…started to get sweaty palms and an elevated heart rate :) My labor and delivery was much shorter than yours, but the intensity was certainly similar as were many of the feelings you described here during and after.

I would agree that any mom wanting to have a drug-free labor needs a great doula! My mom was supposed to be mine, but she didn’t make it since my baby was early and came fast, and I think the main reason I was able to do it naturally is because she was on speaker phone giving my husband instructions and me encouragement! A virtual doula, but still so key!

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177 coco September 16, 2012 at 5:11 pm

Such a great birth story. Kath, you’re so strong! I admire your determination!!!! I hope mine would be as great as yours.

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178 dee September 16, 2012 at 8:37 pm

Thank you so so much for sharing! I loved reading every word of this, you are a rockstar! I wish I had been a candidate for vaginal delivery but my kiddo never turned (and we couldn’t get him to). Hoping for another shot this time around but I guess for some it just is what it is. In the meantime I give so much credit to you natural delivery mommas! Also, thank you for always being so realistic and honest about your hopes for delivery and pregnancy in general, it was a joy to read every step of the way. Best wishes to you, Matt and Mazen!

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179 Aria September 16, 2012 at 9:38 pm

What a beautiful birth story! I’m so glad that things went well for you with the birth and you are a rockstar in my eyes for going drug-free! I can’t even imagine the pain but at least you get a beautiful baby at the end of it :) congrats again – mazen is adorable!

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180 Alicia September 16, 2012 at 10:20 pm

You did great Kath! Thank you for sharing your birth story with us.

I think those of us that are champion pushers always end up tearing. I had busted blood vessels all over my face, and in my eyes. The next day, I really looked like I had been in a brawl.

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181 Meredith September 17, 2012 at 12:02 am

Happy birthday (belaed) to Mazen! He has stunning eyes. I can’t imagine how exciting it must be to meet someone you’ve carried inside you for 9 months! And I think your reasoning for sticking with a drug-free birth is incredibly reasonable – I love that you wanted to be “in the moment” during the childbirth experience. I’ve always been pro-epidural, but there’s something to be said for wanting to connect your own childbirth experience with the experiences of women throughout history. I’ve never thought of it that way until I read your post, but I think that’s a beautiful way to approach the birth process. I’m glad you were able to keep to your plan for Mazen’s birth – and in the process of telling your story so honestly, I have to believe that you’ll inspire other women not to fear the pain, but to accept it as natural and to try to stay in the moment during childbirth. Congrats to you and Matt!

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182 Amanda September 17, 2012 at 3:52 am

Wow, i had a c-section with my first as she was breech. I’m pregnant again and was considering a VBAC for the next one, but after reading this… NO WAY! You just scared the be-jeezus out of me. Anyhoo ~ Congrats on a beautiful baby!

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183 Philippa September 17, 2012 at 5:17 am

Kath, you beautiful, amazing woman. What a story! I felt empowered reading it! I’m so happy that the birth of your son went smoothly and was everything you were hoping it would be. The pictures of the three of you at the end had me choking up a little. And that berry coloured cardigan you have on is gorgeous…the colour really suits you :)

Now, just one burning question, given our previous conversation….was giving birth anything like running a marathon (or a big race)? Or do you think it’s just one of those things you can never fully prepare for, first time around? I’ve never given birth but I have run a marathon and it was the biggest physical (and mental!) challenge I’ve ever had so I’m just curious about how the two experiences compare :) Hope all is going well with the three of you. xx

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184 KERF September 17, 2012 at 10:13 am

YES actually!!!

Races are always harder than I think they are going to be. Labor required the same focus and determination to meet my goal. The same mindfulness. And the stretch the finish line was the hardest part. I personally still think that post was spot on : ) Of course labor hurt a lot more though! But it was never an apples to apples comparison.

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185 Philippa September 17, 2012 at 12:06 pm

Thank you for replying :) I too think that post was spot on and was curious to see what you thought now, on the other side. I saw that you’d written how staying focused mentally during the birth really helped, which really helps in a big race too. It’s very much a mental thing, the body just comes along for the ride. Of course it’s not an apples with apples comparison, as you say. It’s just as someone who has always been very squeamish about birth and not sure if she’d be able to handle it (!) I wondered whether the most intense physical experience of my life so far would be any kind of preparation! I guess there’s only one way to find out ;) Congrats again! xx

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186 KERF September 17, 2012 at 1:09 pm

Definitely. Anything challenging physically you do will help you prepare!

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187 Vidya September 17, 2012 at 5:44 am

I am so glad you had such a great birth experience Kath! The newborn photos are awesome!! I love the one in which you are kissing Mazen.

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188 Lisa @bitesforbabies September 17, 2012 at 7:24 am

What a great story..it brings back so many memories!! I remember too that all I could do was lean over the bed and grunted and hummed like there was no tomorrow! Lol! Thankfully for me the most painful part of the labour only lasted about 3 hours. It’s funny how it all becomes a blur…I felt semi-conscious most of the time-I guess it’s our body’s way of coping!!

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189 Robin September 17, 2012 at 8:10 am

Kath, Thank you so much for your beautiful birth story!!! It was so lovely and so are you! I truly wish you, your husband and precious Mazen Duke all the best. I know you will be enjoying every moment and then some.
xoRobin❤

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190 Amee September 17, 2012 at 9:03 am

Amazing birth story. :) Very well written, and I am proud of you for going drug free. My first birth was medicated and my 2nd one was drug-free. If I have a third I am definitely going drug-free! The recovery is so much faster and nursing is so much easier, in my personal experience. :)

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191 Allison September 17, 2012 at 9:39 am

I have to say that after my son was born (9.5 lbs), I was in the hospital bed and I said to my husband “I just don’t think I can do that again”. It was so long and so painful. But you kind of forget and every birth is different. When my daughter was born, I actually think it hurt a lot more, but the really painful part lasted about 10 minutes (when I grabbed my husband by his shirt, yanked him down to my face and screamed “I want an epidural.” Nice! She was born about 5 minutes later), which is a totally do-able amount of time compared to the hours with my son.

I also laughed about your mess comment. When I was taking Bradley classes, we watched some home births and my main take-away from them was “What a mess! I don’t want have that in my house.” I personally found being in the hospital very calming. Especially with my son, being surrounded by people who knew what they were doing was very relaxing for me, at least at first.

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192 rosie @ rosalicious September 17, 2012 at 10:41 am

Well, damn if this didn’t bring tears to my eyes, a la Baby Story! :) Loved it! It sounds like things couldn’t have gone any better. Very inspiring as I close in on the big day! Who ended up delivering Mazen? I’d love to hear if there’s anything you think I should know ahead of time…either about MJH, docs etc

Anyway, yay for an awesome birth, sweet healthy baby and big ol’ case of beer!

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193 KERF September 17, 2012 at 11:33 am

Dr. Heider! MJH was great and so were the docs. Let me know if you want to walk and talk this week!

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194 Elizabeth September 17, 2012 at 10:52 am

Thank you, Kath, for sharing such a personal story. I’m so happy that everything worked out basically just as you wanted it to be. Congrats, again on your little bundle of joy.

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195 Sara September 17, 2012 at 12:54 pm

Great birth story. So happy for you!

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196 Dawn September 17, 2012 at 1:26 pm

I cried when I read this. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Good work and welcome to the work Mazen Duke!

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197 Reghan September 17, 2012 at 3:04 pm

Beautiful birth story and I love the pics of all of you at the end of the post! Gorgeous.

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198 Andrea (@FrSeed2Stomach) September 17, 2012 at 3:10 pm

What a beautiful, insightful, and educational story, Kath! It sounds like you did a wonderful job preparing for the biggest, most painful, and happiest day of your life. Congratulations, Mama!

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199 MG September 17, 2012 at 6:18 pm

Congratulations on Mazen’s arrival; I enjoyed reading this story a lot! Welcoming a baby into this world and into your lives is an amazing, wonderful thing. I had a question about something you wrote, regarding your IV and antibiotics – you mentioned it was hard on you emotionally. I thought this was really interesting – and was wondering what made it a difficult moment for you?

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200 KERF September 17, 2012 at 6:23 pm

I have a needle phobia from childhood. I just hate them, and having to get one when I was already going through a lot emotionally was overwhelming

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201 MG September 17, 2012 at 8:02 pm

I bet – labor really puts your through the wringer!

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202 Lindsay September 17, 2012 at 8:11 pm

What an amazing birth story and wonderful photos! I spent a good deal of time laboring standing up leaning over the bed rocking back and forth and then during transition I labored in a squat using the birthing ball. I also said a lot of ouuuuuutttttttttts during transition.

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203 Ruth @ FacetiousFarang September 17, 2012 at 9:06 pm

Wow! Thanks so much for sharing this, and for not holding back on the details. I know mothers always say that birth is incredibly painful/difficult, but you really broke it down in terms of what it feels like at each stage. Not sure if I want to get pregnant any more :)

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204 Anna September 17, 2012 at 10:28 pm

Wow… You pushed a human out of you!!! I have never investigated into the experience of childbirth as I am far away from considering that for myself… Reading this was definitely a window into the process that I have never been exposed to before! I can’t believe how LONG you have to endure the contraction pain before even getting to try and push the baby out. But the end result is so very precious. Amazing. Congratulations on the whole pregnancy and birth. And your new blog job! Big, exciting life changes- you are an inspiration =)

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205 Jenifer September 18, 2012 at 8:28 am

Isn’t it aMazeing to be a mom, and a woman? Congratulations on your beautiful baby boy. Your entire pregnancy has been a real inspiration to anyone who is pregnant. While, I am not.. I have referred anyone I know who is, to BERF & KERF.

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206 Nicole September 18, 2012 at 8:57 am

What a beautiful story Kath! Don’t you just feel like you could take over the world now that you’ve done that? I had three natural births (first in a hospital with unsupportive OBs {and a doula thank god!}, second at a freestanding birth center {this birth was what made me become a childbirth educator and doula} and the third at home surrounded by my husband and two other boys {3 and 5 at the time}. I have to say that my first birth was my most triumphant BECAUSE it was so difficult. Not only was I fighting for my right to have a natural birth the whole time but I also had extreme back labor due to him being posterior {this meant NO breaks in between contractions since that’s when the back pain was the worst} and then on top of that, I pushed for 4 1/2 hours to get him out {partly because my OB had me flat on my back which was the worst position for a posterior baby who weighed 9 lbs 4 oz}. Although my other two births were pieces of cake compared to my first birth, it was that first trying birth that led me to feel invincible as a mother! And even though it was the worst pain I had ever experienced, I chose to do it again and this time at a birth center with no option of an epidural so it couldn’t have been THAT bad right? LOL

I’m so proud of you and your strength and you have to be so proud that you gave Mazen the best possible start in life :)

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207 Cait September 18, 2012 at 8:57 am

I loved this story! You are seriously incredible Kath – congrats on setting a goal and following through on it. You are stronger than you know and such a wonderful example!

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208 Meredith September 18, 2012 at 9:58 am

Also, I’m very impressed that you did acupuncture – I did that once and decided it was NOT for me. And I’m not even afraid of needles!

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209 Bek @ Crave September 21, 2012 at 8:09 am

This makes me teary!

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210 RaeChelle September 21, 2012 at 10:02 pm

Congratulations! I loved reading your birth story and it made me chuckle at so many points because I knew exactly what you were going through! I’ve had 3 boys naturally and it is the hardest but most rewarding experience I’ve ever had.

Also, I threw up as well with all three labors and my nurses told me that it’s actually a great sign because it accompanies dilating. (well, that’s the thought I hold on to anyways! ;))

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211 elizabeth September 25, 2012 at 4:51 pm

I really appreciate you sharing this. You seem so honest and straightforward. I would never be able to share this way myself, but I’m glad you do and I learned a lot reading your story(I don’t have kids). So many people are paranoid about posting things on the internet, I’m glad there are people like you sharing and helping us learn.

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212 Katie December 11, 2012 at 1:38 pm

I’m re-reading Mazen’s birth story again. I’m considering a natural labor for my first baby due in March 2013. I think I remember you saying you had Anthem BCBS health insurance. I have the same insurance and was wondering if insurance covered the cost of the doula or placenta encapsulation? Or did you pay for those services out of pocket? It seems like from the questions I’ve asked my health care providers so far, many of the extra expenses I might have with a natural labor (doula and birthing tub rental) might have to be paid out of pocket. I’m just wondering how that worked for you adn Matt.Thanks!

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213 KERF December 11, 2012 at 2:43 pm

They were both out of pocket

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214 Katie December 11, 2012 at 4:25 pm

Thanks!

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215 Trendy Tummy Maternity November 22, 2013 at 11:15 pm

Congrats to both of you and thanks for sharing your personal story with us.It’s so lovely to see the photos of your beautiful baby.

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216 Alexandra December 30, 2013 at 9:44 pm

Wow- I just re-found your KathEats blog when looking for a pinto bean recipe on Google. So glad I did! Congratulations on your sweet boy…very belated congratulations…. I stumbled on your blog in 2007 and really enjoyed your food chronicles. I followed for several years but fell out of the habit after joining the military. I had a similar birth experience, right down to the popped blood vessels. My muscles were so sore the next few days, I felt like I had a run a marathon. Yeah for natural births! It makes you feel like Wonder Woman. Next time I want to give birth in a bathtub in a hospital. They say water births are less traumatic. I think that darn ring of fire is pretty tramautic! But those sweet babies make it ok somehow.

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